so many ships sailing

C: "Remember when you said I was glowing?"
K: "Yeah..."
C: "..I want to glow again."

potato salad?

Enchanted Forest = O-V-E-R. And like.. I realize how much we hated it and asked "why did we do this?" but then I also realize how much we talk about all the sweet stuff that went down during the past few days. And I completely dug being a human blanket for K.Bot and Ski four days straight, and talking/singing with them. Or tickling them.

Speaking of tickling, my whole life I thought I wasn't ticklish anywhere, but Caitlin found a spot. And I would tell you, but holy crap, I wouldn't enjoy it one bit if everyone decided to ambush me and tickle the spot.

But anyway..

I spent two hours at Perkins tonight, no joke. Went with all these people from Enchanted Forest, but basically everyone I have EVER met showed up eventually. Like I think I knew probably 90% of the people in the building, and it was pretty full. I mean even my parents were there for a bit. It was crazy. I ate pumpkin pie (heavenly) and some manly man's pancake platter that I shared with Mike. Oh and chocolate milk. But somehow I only ended up paying $3. I don't get it.

Mr. Chicago = Crazy story.


I think I broke my nose.


And props to.. whoever invented Daylight Savings Time. And Sundays where I don't have to do anything.

brrrrrrr

I went to the beach tonight. Did you? I doubt it. It was nice. There was sand and chairs and kettle corn. I put sunscreen on. I could see my breath and it was the middle of the night, but still sweet.

Actually Kyra and I just decided to hang out at "the beach" after everyone left the park tonight. And the only person, out of all the people we called and texted, who was cool enough to come hang with us was Amanda.

Beach in October = sweeeweeeweeweet.

I spent the whole night cuddling with Ski and K.Bot. Why does it have to be so cold? Or.. why do I have to be oustide all day when it's cold?

I think my joints are frozen solid. I think I'm going to bed.

"You guys are GRR-OSS!"

"that was quick"

Tonight - first night Enchanted of Forest- way too cold. In between groups we'd just lay behind our thing and shiver. I laid on top of Phil and called him a Phillow.. and hey, maybe it was way funnier at the time.. but it still makes me laugh a little.

Freaking every kid wants a million dollars. What's with that? When I was little I wanted candy or a pet zebra or something. But money? Kids don't need money.

Haaaaaaaaa.

I love things lately. Things are going well. And people. I love them too.

I like all the people I just say a few words to every day. And the ones who I'm friends with now but never was before.

But I'm sad that Joey left. We weren't friends like the type that would call each other up to hang, but we'd end up hanging out anyway with everyone else. And I miss him already, as weird as it seems. When I left his Going Away Party on Saturday, I kept coming back for just one more hug. I was really sad.

And I'm even more sad when I think of how Elaina feels. But she seems alright. I mean I know she's upset, but she's doing a very good job of keeping herself together and everything. I'm proud of my little Elaina!

But I'm really tired. And even though I can sleep late tomorrow, I'm going to bed right now I think.

And I just made the best/worst playlist ever.

snap-snap

Has anyone ever noticed that when I try to say "seventy" it sounds more like sev-ah-dee? There's no N. It's kinda weird, I'll admit it.

stars and sons

What's been going on lately?

Well, let me tell you...

I found a paintbrush outside today and I kept it.

One of the coolest stores of all time maybe ever just disappeared. It's just gone, and it makes me sad. Especially since there were a few things I was planning on getting there when I had more money, and now they are gone forever. Where am I going to buy old skeleton keys now? Where can I get ugly wall decorations? Okay, probably many places, but it's still weird how it just vanished.

Tell All Your Friends, I have decided, is my favorite CD to sing. To freakin' belt. I mean, I don't even know if I like it anymore, because I haven't listened to it just to listen to it for a long time. When I listen to it, it's always because I want to sing loud, and that's it.

I got soap in my eye.

I just found out that M'Lyssa is drawing me for Drawing class, which is nothing short of awwwesome.

In fourth hour today, I felt like actually doing something for once, so I'm making this blob thing, out of black and white patterns. It's what the Art One classes did, but I'm just doing it for fun. Seriously, I'm really excited for it.

I love Yoo-hoo.

I love apple pies/cobblers/fritters/sauce/juice.

I love the fact that fall is here.

I do not love, however, the fact that bruises from seven months ago are coming back. That's not normal. I went to a show at the Pipe waaay back, got pushed into a grindrail by some stupid "hardcore" (psh!) dancers and got this intense bruise on the back of my right ankle.. well that's back. And that's not normal. But I had to get bloodwork done, and nothing is wrong there. Soo blaaah. I'll stop complaining now.

Today I got to see Ryan for the first time in a while. And I got to meet his six month old nephew. He's adorable. Honestly, the kid is almost too cute. And he kept looking at me and grabbing my fingers to chew on them. But that was probably the better part of my day, hanging out with Ryan and baby Dillon. I love Ryan and don't see him even close to enough.

Hey so.. completely unrelated, but...

I got a rose yesterday. How 'bout that, eh? Really, I don't deserve it. And I don't deserve being called "amazing" or "perfect". Especially not perfect. It kind of bothers me actually, that's why I argue about it. I mean, I feel like you'll eventually realize that no, I'm not perfect (at all), and I'd rather you realize that now. But, man, I'm not used to this.. And I think you're lying.

I know I'm holding back but I don't exactly know why.

Five months and Roman and I still have mirrored lives.




I hate blogs.

i'm a BRICK WALL!

...(with a door).


Oh, and just to tell you, I'm really confused lately. Wondering where this all came from and what is even happening. But who knows? I'll try to stop questioning it but I have to...

Bleh.

Today was Cake Day. And yes it was happy.

sand = overrated

Me = Speechless.

Which is fine, because it's not like I can say anything right anyway.

But, I don't understand.
Give me one good reason I'm anything close to even near-amazing.

do i have to spell it out for you, or scream it in your face?

My thumb just started twitching like a twitching madman. What's that supposed to mean?

So let's see.. You know I've decided that I'm missing something in my brain or something. Like the flirting cell. Or attraction cell or something. Because like. I have never been one to "flirt" but also, I never can tell if someone is interested in me, even if it's obvious to everyone else. And then, you know, that leads to the person thinking I'm not interested when really I am. But what am I supposed to do? Straight-up say "I want you"? I don't think it works like that.

Adv Photo = nothing to do. Yesterday I glued my shoe back together. And a few days ago I ripped out pictures from magazines, but I don't know what I'm doing with them.

I think someday if I tried I could go undercover as Keira Knightley.



P.S. I think I might punch the next person who buys dollar bling from Osco.

ryan cabrera, you are my sunshine

I spent the night running through a cornfield, looking for the Bray Road Beast. Actually most of the time we were just trying to find our way back to the road (lost). And Ian/ZachJ/Joel would find shoeprints and swear they were beast prints. Kyra got a picture of one so maybe you can see for yourself how shoe-like it is. Ally kept asking where we were. I had a flask full of orange juice and an ear of corn.

And did anyone else notice how sweet the sky looked?

here, have an orange slice

I wouldn't mind being a worm.

my head's a balloon

Four hours of sleep and I'm wide a-freaking-wake. I'll blame that on the NyQuil I took to help me get to sleep. Seriously, I take that stuff and just hibernate. Absolutely do not exist for as long as I sleep.

Oh, hey, I'm sick. Let me sum it up for you: sore throat, runny nose, coughing like I've never coughed before. It's not necessarily a party, but I can deal.

But yesterday at work I was doing truck and putting away cough medicine and all these medicines that just made me think of how sick I felt.

I printed some picures too. I took a roll of film the other day, of nothing in particular. I have to print the pictures at school, but I did some at work last night just to see how they'll turn out. And the answer to that: they'll turn out wonderfully. A few of them at least.

So

So

So

Let's discuss the weather. It's nice, I like it. It was way hot two days ago, now it's ch-ch-chilly. I had the urge to carve a pumpkin yesterday. And I can't wait for the leaves to fall so I can jump in them.

And

And

And

Word on the street is that Jerkins now has pumpkin pie. Well it's about time.

fourth hour and i've got no tunes?

Weak.

I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I'm talking five hours a night. And that's a big difference from the twelve hours I slept every night during the summer. But I don't miss it. I want fall. And pumpkins and caramel and plums and leaves and scarecrows. Fallapalooza mhmmm.

People keep saying we look cute togeter and I don't know how I feel about that one.

But let's hang out this weekend (I'm talking to everyone now). I have 0 plans.

let's talk about homecoming

(Group = Caitlin and Tyler, Rachel and Andy, Me and Zach Dizzle)

It was good. Not like beyond words or anything, but it was fun. I liked it way better than I Homecoming freshman year. And I'm glad that Zach had more fun than he did at Homecoming last year. I forgot to tell him thanks for everything so I'll have to do that. After the dance we all went back to Caitlin's and ate/read an hour's worth of fortune cookies. And watched Fresh Prince awww yeeah.

And here. Check those pics.





So this weekend's been pretty crazy. It ended with a rain dance outside of the Man House with Wayne and Robin and that's how I like it.