there'd be no distance that could hold us back

It seems like I haven't had the time to be bored in weeks now. It's alright, but I don't know. Boredom is not all that bad sometimes.

Apparently every time I go to the park (a lot) my dad thinks I am (and I quote) "smoking dope."

I really miss "the old days" as we call them. The BP's where you didn't even know half the people but it was always fun. And the Sundays where we'd just go to Clara's or go play hide and seek at some park. And that time Matt spun me and Clara on the merry go round for 45 minutes until I couldn't even walk. We never do stuff like that anymore. I remember the days I was always with "the Crew." I got tired of it then, I went for two weeks without doing anything with them just for a break. But now we never do anything.. ever.

I miss Matt. Freakin' Jellyhead.

So I was talking to my friend, about how she should was going to talk to someone about something. (Pretty vague, I'm aware). And I told her that she had to do it soon otherwise she'd start making excuses, like "this isn't THE perfect time to bring it up" and putting it off forever. And putting it off and putting it off and putting it off. And that's no good.

Ever 'give advice' to someone when really you're the one who should be listening?




I want to be a light bulb.
Speaking of light bulbs, I changed one today.

house of mirrors

Mirrored lives? I don't hate it. We're going to look back on this and say it was crazy, but we know it's crazy now. At least we're never alone in anything. This is insane. We didn't talk about entrees or side-dishes once tonight. For the first time in six months. They protect us. I never thought of that. I told him he's like Patrick from Eternal Sunshine. Falling in love with unconcious girls. "You're not unconcious." Well you're not in love with me, sucka. He is Patrick because he's using lines and ploys to get me to like him. And it's not working. I'll end up meeting Joel at Montauk and I know it. The reason it's taking me days to watch one movie isn't because I keep getting tired.

nothing new

Nothing new, except confusion, and the fact that I really really want to go to MIAD.