"i'm being shit on, that's all. shit on!"

...is what i was going to say about today, but i realize things are mostly pretty nice. i should probably not complain ever about anything ever, but i do. i'm human.

things to NOT DO

cut my hair
let kyra spend $$$
stay up til 1 am during the week
kiss randoms
smoke
get fired by the new boss
oversleep
waste my life on myspace
buy rusk mousse (smells horrible)
eat too many pbc's
buy stuff i don't need
drop my ipod
talk to ---- or ----, maybe ever again
skip breakfast
FART

you just ain't receiving

i realize ever trying to have a relationship ever is hopeless, because i'll never love anyone more than i love zach braff in everything he's ever been in. dayuuuuuum

but really, i think before i get old, i'll have to figure out my prob with relating


yes i'm still listening to that same song all the time

a picture of you, holdin' a picture of me, in the pocket of my blue jeans

of course i'm listening to "jolene" again. i really just can't not do it. i'm loving ray lamontagne lately, and hating the fact that i'm ipod-less.

i woke up an hour early today but thought it was an hour later... being why i'm online at such a dumb time.



more later?



today was alright. i don't remember what i meant to add when i said "more later?" that was at least twelve hours ago.

surely i've said this before, but i hate the word "i" / try to avoid using it whenever possible but it's impossible. and i hate doing self portraits- i'm currently working on one for drawing and one for computer art. bum. er. it's not that i don't like myself, i'm pretty happy with me most of the time, it's just hubris is so close to huibregtse that i'd like the only similarity to be the sound, not the definition. ya dig?

don't care what people say, she's a huge jerk.


el fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin because i forgot what to say

lovin here today

So I was really excited two days ago to put tunes like "I Heard It Through The Grapevine" and "Baby Love" and oh yeah, the whole entire wonderful Stick It soundtrack on my ipod BUT wait, my computer tells me it's corrupted, and Brian says it could be from dropping it months ago, but he also says he's afraid of rejection, and he's also a weirdo.

I hope there's a heaven just so I can maybe meet Marvin Gaye and probably kiss him on the cheek.

so i'm hating school

Austin is the loveliest boy I've ever met, just so the world knows. We're going on a date this summer when I visit him. Too bad I prob won't see the toiletface 'til then.

So it's true I'm hating school. A lot. Tomorrow morning I'll be faking Spanish words for a tiny little assignment thing, then drawing mannequins and jenga blocks and.... sitting. I'm so tired of it. At least when second semester starts it'll be a change of pace?

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our first heath bars:

(we hated 'em)

quit talkin about my heart like it's something you could break

I want next year, right now

eegad

so i never think of my life as pitiful until i'm sitting at home on a friday night after a three hour after-school-nap wondering what the crap i'm gonna do because one of my best friends is in california (for a whole nother week too!) and everyone else is not my friend (or working, or not in janesville, but hey)

and i've never hated christmas shopping til this year. and i don't even have a lot to do. just two people left and half of my mom's gift but i keep putting it off! if i was smart that's how i'd spend tonight but noooo thaaanks.

perhaps this is a good time to tell everyone who doesn't know that i drink like a fish.
i drink like a fish.
okay.

rain is the most ridiculous thing when it's december 22.
this pop up ad is seriously asking me "what part of rudolph lights up?"

good god i'm gonna die if i don't find something to do quick

oh wait, i think brian's coming to my rescue?

baby powder fresh - that's disguting

this morning i got to work at 9:46 (only a minute late for once) just to put away douches and other vaginal accessories for about an hour then eventually go home sick before noon even rolled around. then i slept all day.

sickest weekend of my life.

hello dear deer

so i saw death cab again a week or two ago, austin and i are back in touch, adam and i are hanging out more lately, i signed up to go to italy tonight, i'm sick, i really hate drawing class, i really love everything else, my new camera is trashily nice and my christmas presents for my parentals and stegasaurus should be ready in two weeks. oh yeah and nick and i are really not dating. i would say we broke up, but i'd rather admit it was just temporary dumb-ness. and what can ya do? i mean really.

that's basically what's up.

seeing my favorites in january would be the loveliest thing

for serious

it'd be nice if no one ever acted like they knew everything
(even if they did)

what i figured out was i needed more time to figure you out

you can tell how much i care about you by how long i'll stay on the phone with you in winter. because, you should know, i'm mostly always outside when on the phone. in the wintertime, i'm mostly always freezing while on the phone. if i put up with it for over an hour, you're golden.

two people i miss: mike carlson and austin clark
umm, get back into my life now, it'd be much appreciated

rick diculous

so there are only a few people who could possibly know how odd this long weekend was. i mean, if someone asks me what i did this weekend, they won't even be ready to hear it all. things sound so much funnier when you sum them up real quick-like.

i ordered two things earlier (sunday). an "every day" necklace, as kyra would say, and another camera, which is totally not necessary, but what is? i have probably too many cameras (two digital, one polaroid, one film rebel, a camera phone). wow this one's so unnecessary, but it looks very exciting therefore i'm very excited for it.

my ex-roomie amber and i only call each other when scandalous things happen, and i find it hilarious.

adam only JUST noticed my lisp today.

i'm seeing death cab for the third time next week. totally unnecessary.

gr-ate suc-cess

why is it whenever you sleep anywhere else you wake up totally greasified?
(i know it's not just me)

nick (total accident) punched me in the face in his sleep last night and we had an almost-fight (ridic) about tickling
jajajajaja

well um last night was fun although there were some weird fellas and some weird situations with fellas (i got accused of gettin up in another girl's boyfriend's bizznesss)
and if you know me, i'm the opposite of promiscuous, i guess
it's all just kinda stupid

PLUS
nick and i are togezza
isn't it grrreat?

oh and
my camera = not lost
which is goot


wow wah wee wah wah

superfine

Who's had the hugest headache all day? Well I'ma raisin my hand. I'm still alive though

So I hung out with Nick today after I took Kyra to work. We played a game called "Let's Go To McDonald's" and it was purty lovely and all that jazz. I like I like

Then tonight KB and I went to Madison to see The Science of Sleep (I lisped on purpose when I asked for the ticket). We didn't fully understand it but it was still good and entertaining. Then we rapped on the way home and went to the super world of WalMart Supercenter.

I'm debating whether or not I want to get up early(ish) and go to the ribbon cutting ceremony for the opening of Sam's Club. It's like a once in a lifetime experience plus I really want summa these "Koala Bear Yum Yums" that Chrisser was talking about. Hmmmm, decisions decisions

PS Kyle's a fattyNOT

I still have a headache :(

99 problems but a b**** ain't one, hit meh!

i made the best cd ever on friday, yahurrd?

things i did NOT end up doing this weekend (that i was supposed to):
1. go to kaffwin's play on saturday
2. hang out with kb
3. hang out with maria, who i haven't seen for years it seems like
4. we go bowl
5. call devin, just because i never actually made it to the milwaukee area

but i DID buy a spinspa

and i DID have an important conversation

so i guess he and i are like, eh, i don't know. we're trying to make more out of what meant less (a.k.a. what happened two years ago). so we're "seeing where this goes"? and yeah, i'll admit, that's kinda outta nowhere.

o rly?

so maybe i DO care

wow it's thursday november 2

i think i have real irrational friends

mono ohno

I need to:
-clean up my room
-clean up my car
-get rid of the things i don't need
-clean up my life
-clean up the world
-not fall in love with strangers
-start reading the book by my bed
-get enough sleep
-start writing in the book by my bed
-be awake during the day
-buy sugar cubes
-buy red yarn
-be

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"so can you eat when you have mono?"
"yeah. you're supposed to!"

no stone lions for me

The (original) Haunting is one of the first movies I remember watching when I was tiny. Okay I wasn't TOO tiny when I watched it, I think I was six. But still, it's very creepy for that age. It's sucha a good one though I still adore it, so my mom and I rented it tonight and watched it after the Trick Or Treaters were done.

As for my day: I can't help but notice no one got shot. Or that I have the boringest classes and the lovliest friends around.



MOP
TIL YOU
DROP

For some reason I just thought of that day at the end of week four when we mopped the lodge twice over. It was the horriblest work but I was willing to do it, I freakin love Camp. And when I grow up I want to be like Kaffrin Wevohbee (so what if she's two years younger?)