we're jumping out of planes... on purpose!

HEY!






I went skydiving.

oh yeah, the laundrymat

I had this weird thought while I was sitting in the laundrymat, thinking about how it was weird to do my laundry there since I've been doing it in Milwaukee for the past few months, and since my house is only blocks away anyway. And I was waiting for my mom to come and get me, but she was taking a long time. In situations like this when I was younger I'd always get worried that my mom decided to just run away. And if she had, and I was maybe 5-9 years old, I wouldn't know what to do, I'd just cry. If she never came back yesterday, I would have just walked home. So, to run away she'd really have to move out without telling me. And, if all this had happened, and I walked home, and it was empty, I'd probably just hop a bus to Milwaukee and sit in my dorm room confused.



Point: Where is home?

boe joblick

can i just say that i'm in love with my drawing teacher? by that i don't mean i want to marry him or anything... i'm just fully in love with the fact that this man is my drawing teacher. i think it's a perfect role.

friday i wasn't feeling too great when i got to class. he asked how i was, i told him, "kinda sick." after our critique we were setting up to draw the model, and my teacher (code name = boe joblick. real name = obvious) came over to tell me that he appreciated that i stuck around. "you know, sometimes some of your best drawings are done when you aren't feeling the greatest. it sorta like how right before people have seizures, they have epiphanies. does that make sense?" if you say so, boe.

my favorite thing he's ever said is this, and it sums him up real nice:
"i like your use of line and hatching right here. it reminds me of when i go fishing, sometimes i like to take my shoes off and wade into the water, and i never really know where i'm stepping. one time i stepped on a fish. does that make sense?"

the "does that make sense?" gets me every time. because he usually doesn't./

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so i'm home for the night. i left milwaukee probably around 4 pm and i'll be heading back in just about five hours now.

in the short time i've been home, i have:
done my laundry at the laundrymat
macked on some italian house
watched aida (my sister was in it!)
gone to a party
macked on some perkins
stained a billion pieces of wood for space forms (kyra helped)
dyed my hair (dark)
made paper
made a shirt

also, i called ben.. for no reason really. we had hardly really talked since the breaking, but maybe we'll be bros now?



remember him?

queen of rods?

I gave Ally a jingle earlier just to say "Hey, let's start blogging again," so that's what I'll do.

I go to MIAD now. It's amazing, like the perfect place probably. I mean, I'm very very very glad I didn't end up going to UWM or some balogna like that. This school's a lotta work though, and I sleep less now than I did in high school. Sometimes (like right now) I stay up late to finish some work, but usually I'm just up to bake pumpkin pie or hang out with Brad

Which brings me to... I love the people here. I love people in general, ya know? But for the most part, everyone here is pretty enjoyable

So apparently I have a job at the Eisner Museum now. That's the museum of advertising that's actually in the same building as the dorms. I start Saturday I believe

But.. Yeah.. I dunno. I kinda forgot how to "blog."

I still think "blog" is a funny word.

I told myself I'd go to bed by 4, because tomorrow at noon I have to do the Big Brothers Big Sisters jive. Actually I shouldn't say I "have" to, that makes it sound like I don't wanna, and that's far from the truth.

Anyway, Night\


P.S. Clara gave me a tarot card reading earlier. I giggled when I saw the Queen of Rods card

"i'm being shit on, that's all. shit on!"

...is what i was going to say about today, but i realize things are mostly pretty nice. i should probably not complain ever about anything ever, but i do. i'm human.

things to NOT DO

cut my hair
let kyra spend $$$
stay up til 1 am during the week
kiss randoms
smoke
get fired by the new boss
oversleep
waste my life on myspace
buy rusk mousse (smells horrible)
eat too many pbc's
buy stuff i don't need
drop my ipod
talk to ---- or ----, maybe ever again
skip breakfast
FART

you just ain't receiving

i realize ever trying to have a relationship ever is hopeless, because i'll never love anyone more than i love zach braff in everything he's ever been in. dayuuuuuum

but really, i think before i get old, i'll have to figure out my prob with relating


yes i'm still listening to that same song all the time

a picture of you, holdin' a picture of me, in the pocket of my blue jeans

of course i'm listening to "jolene" again. i really just can't not do it. i'm loving ray lamontagne lately, and hating the fact that i'm ipod-less.

i woke up an hour early today but thought it was an hour later... being why i'm online at such a dumb time.



more later?



today was alright. i don't remember what i meant to add when i said "more later?" that was at least twelve hours ago.

surely i've said this before, but i hate the word "i" / try to avoid using it whenever possible but it's impossible. and i hate doing self portraits- i'm currently working on one for drawing and one for computer art. bum. er. it's not that i don't like myself, i'm pretty happy with me most of the time, it's just hubris is so close to huibregtse that i'd like the only similarity to be the sound, not the definition. ya dig?

don't care what people say, she's a huge jerk.


el fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin because i forgot what to say

lovin here today

So I was really excited two days ago to put tunes like "I Heard It Through The Grapevine" and "Baby Love" and oh yeah, the whole entire wonderful Stick It soundtrack on my ipod BUT wait, my computer tells me it's corrupted, and Brian says it could be from dropping it months ago, but he also says he's afraid of rejection, and he's also a weirdo.

I hope there's a heaven just so I can maybe meet Marvin Gaye and probably kiss him on the cheek.

so i'm hating school

Austin is the loveliest boy I've ever met, just so the world knows. We're going on a date this summer when I visit him. Too bad I prob won't see the toiletface 'til then.

So it's true I'm hating school. A lot. Tomorrow morning I'll be faking Spanish words for a tiny little assignment thing, then drawing mannequins and jenga blocks and.... sitting. I'm so tired of it. At least when second semester starts it'll be a change of pace?

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our first heath bars:

(we hated 'em)

quit talkin about my heart like it's something you could break

I want next year, right now

eegad

so i never think of my life as pitiful until i'm sitting at home on a friday night after a three hour after-school-nap wondering what the crap i'm gonna do because one of my best friends is in california (for a whole nother week too!) and everyone else is not my friend (or working, or not in janesville, but hey)

and i've never hated christmas shopping til this year. and i don't even have a lot to do. just two people left and half of my mom's gift but i keep putting it off! if i was smart that's how i'd spend tonight but noooo thaaanks.

perhaps this is a good time to tell everyone who doesn't know that i drink like a fish.
i drink like a fish.
okay.

rain is the most ridiculous thing when it's december 22.
this pop up ad is seriously asking me "what part of rudolph lights up?"

good god i'm gonna die if i don't find something to do quick

oh wait, i think brian's coming to my rescue?

baby powder fresh - that's disguting

this morning i got to work at 9:46 (only a minute late for once) just to put away douches and other vaginal accessories for about an hour then eventually go home sick before noon even rolled around. then i slept all day.

sickest weekend of my life.

hello dear deer

so i saw death cab again a week or two ago, austin and i are back in touch, adam and i are hanging out more lately, i signed up to go to italy tonight, i'm sick, i really hate drawing class, i really love everything else, my new camera is trashily nice and my christmas presents for my parentals and stegasaurus should be ready in two weeks. oh yeah and nick and i are really not dating. i would say we broke up, but i'd rather admit it was just temporary dumb-ness. and what can ya do? i mean really.

that's basically what's up.

seeing my favorites in january would be the loveliest thing

for serious

it'd be nice if no one ever acted like they knew everything
(even if they did)

what i figured out was i needed more time to figure you out

you can tell how much i care about you by how long i'll stay on the phone with you in winter. because, you should know, i'm mostly always outside when on the phone. in the wintertime, i'm mostly always freezing while on the phone. if i put up with it for over an hour, you're golden.

two people i miss: mike carlson and austin clark
umm, get back into my life now, it'd be much appreciated

rick diculous

so there are only a few people who could possibly know how odd this long weekend was. i mean, if someone asks me what i did this weekend, they won't even be ready to hear it all. things sound so much funnier when you sum them up real quick-like.

i ordered two things earlier (sunday). an "every day" necklace, as kyra would say, and another camera, which is totally not necessary, but what is? i have probably too many cameras (two digital, one polaroid, one film rebel, a camera phone). wow this one's so unnecessary, but it looks very exciting therefore i'm very excited for it.

my ex-roomie amber and i only call each other when scandalous things happen, and i find it hilarious.

adam only JUST noticed my lisp today.

i'm seeing death cab for the third time next week. totally unnecessary.

gr-ate suc-cess

why is it whenever you sleep anywhere else you wake up totally greasified?
(i know it's not just me)

nick (total accident) punched me in the face in his sleep last night and we had an almost-fight (ridic) about tickling
jajajajaja

well um last night was fun although there were some weird fellas and some weird situations with fellas (i got accused of gettin up in another girl's boyfriend's bizznesss)
and if you know me, i'm the opposite of promiscuous, i guess
it's all just kinda stupid

PLUS
nick and i are togezza
isn't it grrreat?

oh and
my camera = not lost
which is goot


wow wah wee wah wah

superfine

Who's had the hugest headache all day? Well I'ma raisin my hand. I'm still alive though

So I hung out with Nick today after I took Kyra to work. We played a game called "Let's Go To McDonald's" and it was purty lovely and all that jazz. I like I like

Then tonight KB and I went to Madison to see The Science of Sleep (I lisped on purpose when I asked for the ticket). We didn't fully understand it but it was still good and entertaining. Then we rapped on the way home and went to the super world of WalMart Supercenter.

I'm debating whether or not I want to get up early(ish) and go to the ribbon cutting ceremony for the opening of Sam's Club. It's like a once in a lifetime experience plus I really want summa these "Koala Bear Yum Yums" that Chrisser was talking about. Hmmmm, decisions decisions

PS Kyle's a fattyNOT

I still have a headache :(

99 problems but a b**** ain't one, hit meh!

i made the best cd ever on friday, yahurrd?

things i did NOT end up doing this weekend (that i was supposed to):
1. go to kaffwin's play on saturday
2. hang out with kb
3. hang out with maria, who i haven't seen for years it seems like
4. we go bowl
5. call devin, just because i never actually made it to the milwaukee area

but i DID buy a spinspa

and i DID have an important conversation

so i guess he and i are like, eh, i don't know. we're trying to make more out of what meant less (a.k.a. what happened two years ago). so we're "seeing where this goes"? and yeah, i'll admit, that's kinda outta nowhere.