Have you ever had a relationship end up in a way that you didn't expect? Didn't want or wish for? So have I.. many of them. I often think of what I want to happen, but don't act in a way that will make that happen. I'll see a friendship fading, and I'll be disappointed. What I don't think of though is that there's still time to make it right. You're in as much control of what happens to this relationship as the other person.
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he asked if you were alright
you said you're just so tired
we're all tired these days
blame it on a simple lack of oxygen
but you were motionless for so long,
pronounced 'Legally Furniture'
are you sure that you're sure?
you haven't been saying much lately
well, damn, neither have I
it was easy to point fingers at first
"we didn't start the fire" in unison
but no one did, and that's our problem
we had no flame...and no one to blame but ourselves
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...and that's the trouble with my "poetry" it looks so much better scribbled on a notebook page than a computer screen. or maybe it's just plain not good.. and i continue to post the second "poem" of the day anyway.
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6 comments:
So basically this is a reponse to your respone, and it would work a whole lot better if instant messanger worked. I decided to have a blog because I just needed something to ramble on and type whatever I want without worrying about people interrupting me, telling me I'm misinformed, and let's face it the average sophmore doesn't want to talk about politics. It's not that I didn't want to tell you that I had a blog, I just didn't know how to tell you. Not that having a blog is a big deal or anything. You said that were not as close as we used to be, and that makes me sad. Because you're right, but you know what is worse? We both know that our friendship isn't what it used to be, and yet we do nothing about it. I feel like you don't want me around and that I am a bother, which confuses me. We barely talk in gym class, let alone say hi to each other in the halls. You're right I do care about what you say in your blog. So instead of just becoming more awkward towards each other, we should do something about it. We seem to be feeling somewhat similar lately. I think that we can stick together and help each other out. Isn't that what friends are for? I know we've changed alot, even since last summer but that is no excuse to let a friendship go. And your right, acting and speaking on impluses are way easier than planning your next step. Not worrying, not caring, is a whole lot easier. Despite some of the stupidity that comes from my mouth, I really don't try to be stupid. And now commenting on your blog itself, I have to say it does sound like you. Everything you seem to type is smart with some kind of sarcastic humor, not everything is sarcastic...but when used 'tis excellent. The one thing that surprises me is that you say that you feel left out, when all this time I thought that way. You seem to think that no one cares and sad almost. Now, I think I am almost ready to end this post and stop typing, but not before I ask you what you're doing this weekend because I really think we need to hang out.
Now I am now ending the second the longest post
"Legally Furniture." - genius!
O yeah, I forgot. I happened to catch one of the Yeah, Yeah, Yeah's tracks l'autre jour. I think it went by the name of 'Shade' or 'Maps'. Yep, 'Maps'. It made me want to get a razorblade out and end it all. Each to their own though. I'm more for The Datsuns, something a little more energetic.
I don't really think that you can 'work' at a friendship. You can try harder to be better acquaintances but I reckon that friendship is a conection that is beyond intentional control. Yes, you can control elements of it, like deciding against sleeping with your best friend's partner (never a very good idea), but, in my addled perception of the world, your best friends are individuals that you cannot help but get on well with.
Yes, I know, I'm a patronising old git.
Well 'working' at a friendship was not really what I was talking about. It's kind of hard I guess to explain what I meant... so I'll tell you a story instead.
For a while (few weeks) I wasn't in a talkative mood at all, with anyone.. just one of those things I guess. My friend noticed this, but instead of asking if anything was wrong, assumed that I was mad at her. Friend then proceeded to not talk to me, because if I really was mad at her, why would she want to? This started a sort of subconcious vow of silence between the two of us. She thought "Carly's mad at me. I better avoid her." While I thought "She's ignoring me. I guess she doesn't like me anymore." Big drama over the littlest thing. But if either of us had simply asked what the hell was going on, it wouldn't have happened. If you think something is wrong, find out for sure, don't assume. I think that's what I was trying to say.
but I know I don't make much sense
That story seems to ring a bell. I think that these two friends should just call it a day and grab some lunch...such a Taco Bell.
damn you for being a poet.
-roman
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